Snob

I realized this morning that I've become a snob when it comes to doctors.  We deal with them so much that I'll admit that I'm used to personalized attention, a doctor taking their time to answer my questions and thoroughly evaluate my child and hear everything I have to say.  This morning I had to call the pediatrician's office, which is a place that we don't go to all that often.  My boys have their well-checks annually, of course.  Other than that, we make one or two sick visits a year there, and that's it.  So, we rarely go.  When Finn is sick I almost always skip straight to the team at Children's Hospital.  And when Kai gets sick it's never more than just a cold and it passes.  But Kai is still sick and has had a pretty rough weekend.  I might even venture to say that this is the sickest I have seen him in a very long time.  His cough is nasty and persistent (we listened to it for 4 straight hours last night while we all tried to fall asleep).  He had a low-grade fever yesterday (101.6) which is the first time in nearly 5 years that I can remember him having a fever.  He has no appetite and is as close to lethargic as Kai can get.  I want him seen by the doctor.  But here's the catch.  I have no confidence in their ability to tell me anything other than he has a cold.  I'm already stressed that I'm wasting my money and time and we haven't even gone yet.  But Finn's nose is starting to run more and he's coughing--not good.  I want to know what Kai has so that we can make him feel better and so that we'll know what it is that we are all going to be sharing here real soon.  I also think that there's no way I can send Kai to school like this, and so I need a doctor to let me know if I'm right.  Well, let's be honest, even if the doctor says he can go to school, I'm not sending him.  Not like this!

I wish I could explain better how I feel about the pediatrician, but I can't.  I can just say that I have no confidence in being treated as something other than a number.  And that frustrates me.  Kai is not a number and our family certainly is not typical.  Kai being sick isn't much better than Finn being sick, because we know Finn will be soon.  So, we're going to give the doctor a chance.  Thankfully we're seeing a doctor that we've seen before and I remember liking her, so I'm hoping that I'm stressing for nothing.  But my confidence in the health care system just isn't there right now.  And that may have something to do with the last three bills that I've had to call and argue about with my insurance company.  But that's another story.....

Popcorn and movie pajama day on Friday.  I have a feeling our week is going to look a lot more like this.